Day 54. Maybe, you're gonna be the one that saves me.

Naturalism

White?

I had a terrible headache tonight.

It's very rare that I look a camera straight on. It's just...not the most flattering angle for me.


I watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind tonight. I loved it.

Day 54. Oops!

I have never played Risk.

Day 53. I may be small, but I've got giant plans.

To shine as brightly as the sun.

Guys...
I did it.






I got a special letter and present in the mail today from a beautiful girl.



Taken last night. I was being 'bare and beautiful'

Day 52. After school, walking home.

I'm so stressed out.
I have three essays to write for my application.

I have to write an essay by Friday about being a special ed teacher.

Auditions are making me want to pull my hair out. I want Jo so bad it hurts. I've never auditioned for a musical and wanted a part as bad as I want this. It's my last show here, and the part is just...amazing...She's a small girl with a big belting voice who is passionate and strange. The music is gorgeous, and listening to the songs she sings literally brings tears to my eyes to think about actually performing them. It's very obviously between Alea and I. They are doing that into the woods Alea and Megan witch/bakers wife thing, where if I get Jo she'll be Meg and if she gets Jo I'll be Meg. God, I want it so bad. It's usually a bad thing to be this open about wanting something, but I'd so hard to not express just how deeply I want it. It doesn't help that I'm getting super emotional about it being my last show here. Someone started playing "Oh the thinks you can think" during warm-ups and Clifford and I were standing in our approximate places for that songs and it just brought back the last four years. How far I've come since being a little thing with no head voice sitting on a throne with my legs swinging not even understanding how much I'd become a part of that place and looking at the seniors like they were the most talented people in the world. Now I'm sitting in the seats, and a freshman tells me "Did you know that I want to be you?"

Where did the time go?

I'm honestly scared that posting this will ruin my chances of getting it because I get nervous about those sort of things, but I just...I know It's not luck when it comes to parts. It's about talent.

Cross your fingers for me, please.

p.s.

Me : *going on and on about how stressed and upset and what not I am*
Him: ..Maybe you should google baby turtle

Day 51. Really nothing there.

I don't take myself very seriously sometimes. :P

Day 50. Hey, hey, hey, What's going on?

WHAT A TERRIBLE FACE.




You can see my contact.


"Our kids would come out of the womb with their mouths on one side"


My ex husband beats me. Just so you know.

I really, really like this. I don't know why.

HAWT.

Day 49. Megan!

Isn't she just the most adorable girl you've ever seen rocking a Matilda bow? I think so.




Moral of the story? Never leave Jessica with your camera.

Day 48. Someone special was born today.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPH.

Day 47. Would you let me dress you? Or help you pick out your clothes before we go out?

FSM.

My own little pitcher

Bridge..thing..

Playground Lake

Heart.

Love life.

Ringer

Ghost

Day 46. For you

I walked a lot today, we went on a 'field trip' to the Stanford Shopping Center, University Avenue, and Valley Faire. I ended up with new pajamas from Peter Alexander that I am wearing right now, and am extremely happy with.

Anyways, I was sitting here on Steph's bed when I realized that I needed a video! Quick Capture to the rescue.

Day 45. Laughing up a storm

Day 44. Gonna wet herself, I swear.

My day?
I woke up, was whisked away in half pajamas and morning hair, fed, and entertained.
Taken home.
Kidnapped again, then we perused around Borders.

In the in between time I did this:

Fancy yellow hat by Teeny. Check her out http://candypow.blogspot.com/



ALSO


The first movie I've bought on it's release date. I never buy movies. Had to buy this one.

Day 43. IF YOU WANTED HONESTY, THAT'S ALL YOU HAD TO SAY

I wore my My Chemical Romance shirt today, and I felt like a good old silly video was in order.
If you are a fan/were when you were in middle school as I was, this song was your anthem of angst.
This is for you. XD






8th Grade

Freshman Year
Freshman Year
Freshman Year

Day 42. A recap, perhaps?

I'm a ghost in the morning. True story.



Pancakes!


Scrambled Eggs (my first time making them)

Tah Dah!

Happy boyfriend in his favorite sweater that I let him borrow for the weekend


On the way to Dinner



Kisses


I think that's his sexy face. I can't be sure.


FROYO?



I'm small.



Me in said sweater later on in the night.


I told him my feet were cold so he got up, took his socks off, and put them on my feet.
They are big.




Um..yeah...

Day 41. I know that you feel it too.

You know what they say in theatre.
If you mess up a line, just keep going like nothing happened.
People are likely to forget.

Day 40. I got really frustrated

That after I messed this up a good 10 times and had to redo it, THE ONE TIME I GOT IT RIGHT..
it was blurry.
So I didn't redo it.






SIDEWAYS.
Brent Gamble?

Ps..
ANDREW COMES HOME IN LESS THAN FOUR HOURS